I have been pretty down all day today, more than any time in recent memory. 
As a 39 year old, borderline millennial, who went to OSU in 2001, I have been fortunate to to have lived through an Oho State period of BIG10 dominance, national championships, and arguably the most important, beating TTUN. Before these past two years, we were 18-2 against that team, with one of those years being a transition year where Fickell took over the team as interim coach, and even that year, we were 1 pass 2 yards long away from winning that game. 

We saw Tressel just own that team. Urban had a lot of ups and downs, good times and turmoil during his tenure, but he never lost to TTUN, which is something I will always cherish about his time with the team. 

You can say I've (and many my age or younder) been spoiled by generally dominant Ohio State football. I don't even remember the last time we lost to that team two times in a row. 

Last year was painful, but even then, there was "always next year". We made changes to the coaching staff, the best QB and WR in college were coming back, we were stacked with talent, and we got the opportunity to right the ship at home. OF COURSE that would would happen. I didn't even know it would have been possible to not. 

But now, after two embarrassing blowout losses, I have never had less optimism and hope for the future of this team than at any time over the past 25 years.

 
Next year we will go to their stadium. Stroud will be gone, JSN is never going to step on the field again for OSU, their best players are coming, and our coaching staff will have to do something away that we couldn't do at home. The chances that we win next year? As I'm seeing this right now, very little. 

So we lose back to back in horrible fashion, high likelihood that we go 0-3, and then we are at the mercy of perhaps a new coaching staff, or even worse, Smith rides it out with Day and this crap continues. 

And how will recruiting be through all of this? 
I hope I felt better. I know things are cyclical and good times will come back again, but right now it really sucks, and I am having a hard time finding places where things are positive.